I might make someone’s perfect employee, at least if I’m lucky enough to eventually get a job that’s marginally interesting. I realize I have a lot of troubble laying aside work and just enjoying my vacation. For once I’m lucky enough to actually have a rather decent vacation, as opposed to working through the summer, yet I find it incredibly difficult to stop thinking about my studies (yes, I do consider it my job. I just wish they’d pay me better).

I’m a bit anal retentive in my obsession with lists and plans, prefferably detailed and perfect ones, and the fact that I had to shuffle around a lot of courses when I started studying makes making them hard to make. It doesn’t help that no one seems to know what my eventual masters degree is going to be good for, or who might want to employ me or what I might be qualified to do and I have no idea which courses I should be choosing to make getting a job (that I want) more likely. I should probably stuff my degree as full of geology as I can manage and go for a job in petroleum, but… That’s so far away from what I want to do. I can’t really say precicely what it is I want to do, which doesn’t help, but Im confident petroleum isn’t it. I’ve had this glorious vision of me working on some unspecified part of a floating windmill project and I try to think of the best way to get from here to there, but I can’t see it. I’ve been looking at the Arctic technology and ocean geology courses in Svalbard as an option, and I realize that instead of aiming at the production part of things, I might be a lot better off if I focus on the environmental surveillance aspect of it. It seems so much less … “hands on” than what I imagined to be doing, but it might turn out to work well. So that’s one step closer.

I’m trying to figure out when to do my semester abroad as well (or in Svalbard, which isn’t technically abroad, but close enough). I’m supposed to do it next spring, but I’ll be missing a few courses I think I should have, but I can’t tell how important they’re going to be. Originally I had it planned for the year after, but we’ve been talking a lot about getting a dog the past 6 months and we’ve concluded the only thing really standing in the way is my leaving for 6 months. If I do it this year, we can start planning earlier. I’ve been pretty set on going to Svalbard, but I’m unsure if that’s the best thing to do at the moment. The courses look interesting, but I’m honestly not sure if I want to be going farther north, I’m getting sick of the long winters and dark as it is. Also, Svalbard is even more expensive than living here, which means I’ll have no chance of paying the rent for our present apartment while off, and the boyfriend will have to handle all of it, which is going to be a pain, if even possible.

Decisions, decisions. :)

And if my pondering and planning isn’t enough, I’ve brought a ton of math and chemistry books from the library to be able to prepare for the next semester. It’s really insane, I’ve never in my life worked like this. I’m the eternal Queen of the Slackers, and yet I find myself enjoying it. I guess that’s a good sign.

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